What I really sad about..

I just finished surfing the website about how to get pregnant. I am so sad when I think about it. The more I'm thinking about this the more I feel the pressure. Its like I'm the one who's trying hard. I'm not blaming my husband in this case but at least try to be a little bit concern about this matter. I know I'm the one who has all this problem llike fertality,ovary and etc. Sometimes I get really frustrated in life. I've been married since 2 ye ars ago and trying to get pregnant ever since. Maybe its not the time yet. Cause I believed that Allah must have a reason why I'm still not pregnant. I must put my 100% efford to concieve but sometimes I don't know what else should I do. I've tried so many things like seeing the doctors, eating medicines, massages, try to lose some weight but still, I haven't got pregnant. Like I said, maybe Allah has other plan for me. Maybe there is a good thing beside all this. I will keep waiting and pray that one day my parents will get lots of grandchildrens. Pity Ibu, when I'm thinking about Ibu, I become so sensetive. She wants us to have children since the day we were married. All of her brothers and sisters have lots of grandchildrens but she has not. Even just one. If she got one would be so much means to her.. Ibu..believed me, I really want this to be happened.. really I do Ibu..I love u and dad so much. Both of you means everything to me.